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(WARNING: Sorry in advanced if this seems incoherent. Just needed to ramble.)

I like to think that I’m a good person. Yes, I may not attend church every Sunday, and my life isn’t completely sin free, but that doesn’t change how I try to live my life.

Personally, I try to live with not only an open mind, but an open heart. Sometimes this proves difficult, and I fail, but I’m still trying! I can’t guarantee that I won’t judge someone every once in a while, but that’s what makes us human, right?

Everyday I try my hardest to love and support the people closest to me with everything I have because I know that they have my back. 

I try my best to not give others reasons to dislike me. 

I try to help others with anything that I can, even if it means putting their needs ahead of my own.

There’s not many people I’ve talked to about this, but I’ve spent a lot of time lately struggling with what I believe. I’m not quite sure what my beliefs are right now. When it comes down to it though, I’m trying to live my life as the best person I can be. That’s what’s truly supposed to matter, right?

 

 

Change Is Good & It’s Not Optional

Almost exactly three years ago, I was gifted a Nikon D3100 for Christmas. In the past three years it has seen an incredible amount of moments. It captured memories that will live in high school yearbooks and social media for years to come. It has also helped me find a passion that has led me to where I am today. Even if I had to, I couldn’t tell you how many thousands of pictures have been taken on that very camera.

I’ve done a lot of growing since 2010, and after looking at my Flickr account, I started thinking that my concert photography has come a long way. The very first show I shot after I got my new camera was for my friends in My Cardboard Spaceship Adventure at a church basement in Pittsburgh. This picture was one of my favorites for a long time. I thought I was so artsy and cool with the backlighting/shadows/classic Megan tilt. Looking at it now, I realize how much I just wasn’t trying. I was pointing and shooting without really thinking about the lighting or composition.

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Fast forward three years, and I’ve been given the opportunity to shoot a lot more shows than I ever thought possible. Ever since I started, I’ve loved concert photography. When I first started, most shows I shot were with My Cardboard Spaceship Adventure like the ones above. With their (and a few other bands) encouragement, I decided to take it further and start working with publications. Once I moved down to Nashville, I knew that it was something I wanted to do a lot more, and that’s exactly what I did.

By the time I started shooting for others, I knew I needed to learn more. I started working on shooting in manual mode so that I had complete control over every picture I was taking. I started looking to other photographers for inspiration. I did my homework and started working my hardest to keep getting better and better.

This past year I’ve gotten the opportunity to take pictures of some incredible artists, including a few that I’ve listened to for years. When I saw this picture of The Dangerous Summer, I saw how different my photos were. I’m not sure if anyone else would see a huge difference, but to me it’s really signified how much I let myself change in order to get better.

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For me, the moral of all of this is that change is good, and I don’t just mean my photography. Growing up, as scary as it is sometimes, is an incredible journey. I’ve spent the last year and a half in Nashville really searching for myself. I don’t think that I’ve completely found myself, but I really do believe I’m getting closer. I’ve learned a lot about who I am, what I stand for, who my true friends are, and what I’m capable of. I’ve discovered what in my life I absolutely love and what I’m still kind of iffy about. But what I’m most excited about everything is that this is just the beginning. There’s so much more life that is going to happen, and I couldn’t be more ecstatic that’s what I have to look forward to. I know that the road of life isn’t perfect, but it’s the only life that I have. I plan on making the most of it by following my heart and doing what I love.

 

xoxo Megan

Five Lyrics I’m Thankful For

With Thanksgiving tomorrow, I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about everything that I’m thankful for. It starts with my family, my best friends, and my wonderful boyfriend. All of those are typical cliches that my Facebook timeline will be filled with tomorrow. Today, however, I’m sitting in my apartment staring at the Nashville skyline. I’m about 600 miles away from my family, and I’m not all too sure who my best friends are these days. Through it all though, no matter where I am, I always have music to help guide me which is why I’m in the industry that I am. 

My favorite music experiences are when I find a song and the lyrics hit me so hard that I’m instantly reminded of why I love music so much. Over the years my musical taste has expanded vastly, but I always know I’ll be able to find lyrics that mean the world to me. Right now, these are those lyrics.

These are in no particular order.

1. “Try to forget the ones who forgot you first.” from How To Hide Your Feelings by Man Overboard

This year has truly been a growing year for me. I’ve moved down to Nashville and started my life down here with new friends and new adventures. One thing I’ve started to realize though is how difficult it is to decide what former friendships to keep ahold of. I’ve always been the type of person who seemingly put more effort into friendships than the other person. I had many people I considered to be my best friends, but no one really considered me theirs. These days, I’ve been trying to decided whether to put the past behind me as I move forward from Franklin and onto bigger and better things. In the end, I’m doing what I can, and those who have always been there will have a place in my life, but I would rather forget than be forgotten.

2. “The streets that used to make me feel alive just make me feel alone.” from Anchor Down by Real Friends

This is another lyric that has starting hitting me more and more as I move on from my life back home in Pennsylvania. As I spend less and less time at home, when I finally do go back, it doesn’t feel the same. I’ve grown distant from the people and the places that made me the person that I am today. When I walk down the street, I find myself wanting to be back in Nashville because at the moment, that’s where I feel most alive.

3. “I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words how wonderful life is now that you’re in the world.” from Your Song by Elton John

Last april I went with my best friend (now boyfriend) to see Elton John live in concert. When the encore happened and this song was played live, I turned to him and told him that this song was for him. Even when we were just friends, I knew how special he was in my life, and Your Song couldn’t have put it any better.

4. “I miss my mom and dad for this.” from Some Nights by Fun.

Once again, another lyric that describes my feelings about leaving home and starting life on my own. No matter how frustrated I get with life or how many times I ask myself if I’m following the right life path, I know my parents are back in Pennsylvania cheering me on. I miss them more than anything, even if my mom doesn’t give me time to miss her by calling me everyday. I know life won’t always be easy, but I know that no matter how much I miss my mom and dad, I can’t give up now.

5. “You told me I was like the dead sea. You never sink when you are with me.” from Dead Sea by The Lumineers

I have found a wonderful support system in my best friend and my boyfriend. Between the two of them, I stay completely sane and on top of my game. They challenge me to be better everyday. When I’m with them, I don’t have to worry about sinking because they’re always there to keep me up. I love them, and I owe them everything. They’re my Dead Sea.

 

Music is my life, and I’m beyond thankful for it. I know that music will be there through the good and the bad. That’s what’s absolutely incredible and why I’m doing what I am. And thank you to all the bands who wrote incredible lyrics to let me know that I’m not the only one going through this crazy life. 

 

xoxo Megan

Inspired words from an everyday dreamer.